[ on the other side of things, adam pretends not to notice anything. it's easier this way, or so he thinks. the longer he remains oblivious to everything, the longer he puts off having to face his own honesty on the matter. mostly because it just leaves him running in circles. why does ronan look at him that way when he's not anything special? why would ronan even care about someone like him? maybe he doesn't. maybe it's all not real. maybe adam's just imagining it because he wants it to be real.
wouldn't that be something.
he leans back against the seat and lets out a sigh. logically he knows how ronan meant it, but logic doesn't always show up when it needs to. images flash through adam's mind that he doesn't want to see right now; it makes his stomach twist uncomfortably and he folds in on himself slightly. his knee bumps against the door and he audibly sighs as he turns his attention to look out the window at the world just passing him by. ]
Yeah.
[ it's a soft agreement. ronan's right, there is only room for one of him and before long there will be none. and it'll be all adam's fault. then what?
why can't he just make a joke to change the subject or lighten the mood instead of just sit here like a lump? absently, he rubs a hand over his knee. ]
no subject
wouldn't that be something.
he leans back against the seat and lets out a sigh. logically he knows how ronan meant it, but logic doesn't always show up when it needs to. images flash through adam's mind that he doesn't want to see right now; it makes his stomach twist uncomfortably and he folds in on himself slightly. his knee bumps against the door and he audibly sighs as he turns his attention to look out the window at the world just passing him by. ]
Yeah.
[ it's a soft agreement. ronan's right, there is only room for one of him and before long there will be none. and it'll be all adam's fault. then what?
why can't he just make a joke to change the subject or lighten the mood instead of just sit here like a lump? absently, he rubs a hand over his knee. ]
Where are we going?